HAVE FUN, HONEY!

Ok. Day started a little busy. I went to the hospital with my mom because she had a radiological examination. After this, we had breakfast in a restaurant. Food wasn’t that bad. Talk was really good. I talk with her about the feelings I have with JC. She said I want to run, that I want to go to fast. She is right. I have been feeling a bit needy with him. I don’t want to be this way, the problem is that it is so hard for me to control my emotions. Actually, I feel warm with a rise of my temperature right now. I am so much in love with him, but I have to slow down.

I should go out with my friends, find other activities that will keep me busy. I he wants to join me, go ahead, but I shouldn’t follow him anymore.

Amazingly, he wrote two messages to me today. I was so excited!!!! And I think that’s the problem, he just need to smile at me, and I he has me at his feet.

I wrote an email to him explaining why I have been acting like that. I don’t know if it was a good idea anymore. I feel needy now that I haven’t hear anything from him since the last messages.

I tried to find some answers on the web, but the only thing I found is something like “talk to him”, that I am not going to do anymore because I had problems the last time I tried, or “keep going on your own” That is going to be so hard for me because I am not strong on my own stuff. I just arrived from Canada and I haven’t made a living plan here in Mexico. My friends have their own life and the only thing that is keeping me away is my work. I hope I can find other activities, and go out with my friends on weekends. That probably will give him some space to miss me and make him try to contact me. But it is going to be SO HARD FOR ME.