TOO MUCH!!!

Frustration. The only way I had to chat with some friends over work was blocked… now….I have nothing. Why they should be so mean with their employees? Don’t know. I have not the answer for this kind of questions, and believe me. I have been trying to figure things out of how life works. I have no idea.

My mom was hospitalized last week because she suffered a stroke in the Wernicke area. She has an aphasia. She is home now. But I feel so sad. I don’t feel this is fair. Not for her, not for me. My brothers attack me. I just work hard to help my mom as much as I can. They have no idea how I feel. My counselor said that they can’t even start to think how do I feel, because they have not the capacity to understand it.

Adding to the pressure of my family that their help is almost null but very demanding of me helping them, is my personal romantic life, which I have been suffering for an unspoken rupture. My bf is a fool. He wants me to fight for a relationship I have only in my mind. If he doesn’t give me a relationship, I will not going to fight for something I don’t see. He is arrogant, prejudice, liar, with no manners.

I need someone that will hold me and tell me…”you can do it”. That’s it. Am I asking too much???